把伤心留给自己

短短的四个月，不长，却深刻，很回味

可能是保护意识作祟，或是在死撑潇洒。。。亦然决定离开你

似乎，是你变了？还是，我要求多了？

感情没有对错。。。我，没有怨言

前方模糊，对你和我。。。

跟着感觉走吧，去追求自己渴望的。。。

随笔 于 一个人的夜晚 18/11/09

My brother's big day!!!

18th October, a very BIG day for my family ^.^
and I was the best man!hehehe~ (gotta drive a BMW >.<)
well, most pictures were posted on my facebook.
over here, I would just post some highlights group pictures.
nothing much to be said, it was a tiring yet happy and glamorous day!!! and a good time to catch up with all the relatives again!


bride's sis, the couple of the day, me-->the best man (the bag is to keep ang pow,hoho~)
(it was taken at the bride's place, then we fetched the bride back to the bridegroom's aka my brother's place!)

(family pic! we are back in our house!)

(inside the masterbed room, 4 of us again :) )

(me and my 2 cousin sisters, great helpers throughout)

(another family picture at the wedding dinner)

a late post up of a picture with my very professional and cutie/pretty photographer cum cousin sis ^.^ (thanks too ya!)

well well, it was a happy ending ^.^
most importantly, everyone got to dress up smart and pretty!!! hehehe~

and i love my hair-do that night, thanks boo!!!
and of course thanks D too for everthing!!!

Pre-call depression

once again, i am going to have on call tmr, on a saturday, from 12pm saturday till sunday 12pm...sigh, been a week since i last on call, all those mixed and contradicting feelings coming back again, haunting me.

I start to wonder again, why I put myself in such place, suffering and working like dog and cheap labour, get scoldings every now and then. Why can't I work normally like office hours? What's wrong with going back at 5pm if I get my job done? I am really tired...

I know I am still far from being competent, but I am already trying my best, I am very tired and stressed out too to catch up and keep up.

once again, I am thinking to give up and just quit...sigh...

well, time to go to bed, charge up and prepare mentally, emotionally and physically for the long long day tomorrow.

thanks for reading my rambling >.<

arigatou~
best of luck to me tmr!!!

Look out!

well, yesterday night, after Jacjac persistent invitation >.< i finally drove all the way to Ampang with D to meet her up and we dined in a place called "little genting" highly recommended by jacjac.

and it turned out to be NOT a disappointment :P (worth my drive all the way there,haha~)

We drove up hill and turned into a place halfway called :the look out point, where a handful of restaurants are located. Parking was kind of difficult to get that night, even after paying RM3 to enter =.= (next time should just park outside at the roadside)

we did some exercise climbing some flight of stairs, with some cool shops along the way, and stopped upon this restaurant called "Haven".

It offers a variety of Asian and Western food.

We got ourselves a table at the far end, near the edge where we could get a magnificent view of KL night scene, twin towers and KL tower obsviously stood out of all things.



The food was OK, at least my lamb chop was chewy >.<

Most importantly, we got to chill out and catch up with each other under such a breezy relaxing atmosphere :)



I think we will come back again! ^.^

People to thank along the way during my Europe trip

I went on a journey to the land of england and spain last july ALONE for the very first time, however, fortunately and thankfully, i have travel ANGELS along the way to host me, befriend me, cheer me and company me!!!

I would like to thank them with this post here:-

Rohfei!!! the london-turn-geneva inhabitant >.< (all the best ya for your new job!) thanks for the lovely one day trip!!!

Mei'i!!! thanks for hosting me in your lovely bungalow, i am still amazed with your awesome-ly neat backyard


Cheng'i!!! and mee siew'i!!! thanks for hosting me too in your comfy apartment and all the delicious meals!!!


Oskar, David and his gf!!!thanks for the great time in london!!! i will always remember "FIRE" >.<


An Hong!!! thanks for the companion in Barcelona!!! hope u will find the way in Spain!


well, concluding on the journey travelled alone, I must say that eventually i still prefer a travel buddy :P at least there is someone to take my pictures!!!

An amateur HO life

well,it was my 2nd day of working life in a general medical ward, 9C in selayang hospital.
i MUST admit that, student's life is nothing as compared to HO life, especially a fresh HO.
I worked from 630 till 2330 today itself =.=
I am given 8 beds of stable patients to be in charge of on my 2nd day itself, it is good coz I will be able to pick up and adapt much faster :) meanwhile, i must be strong and optimistic to persevere through, in addition being in KL alone without the warmth of family and home :( everything is more difficult.
So guys, appreciate your students life if u are still having, especially for juniors back in CSMU >.<
P/S: today itself i already assisted in a resuscitation, unfortunately the patient didn't survive, the scene and atmosphere is not something i look forward to.
I got stressed up too when come to skills in doing the procedures, i think i suck!!! sigh...i need to catch up real quick to be competent!!!
at the same time i have to re-study all my materials again to brush up on my knowledge!!! OMG~ I don't have time and energy for this :(
lastly, who will do my laundy for me pleaseeeeeee...

peace out

A new chapter of life soon

It had been a while since my last post...
Well, I graduated! and least expectedly, I am going to start work SOON, too soon, which is next Monday =.=
I am posted to Hospital Selayang, didn't manage to get my first choice, Ipoh GH.
This means another new environment for me to explore again! A new working place, unfamiliar neighbourhood...huhuhu~ scary???
Initially, was quite reluctant to move again after coming back from ukraine just merely a MONTH! I want to stay back in hometown with my comfy room, somemore a new room! Well, it seems like it is not time yet for me to enjoy such luxury, I have to continue my hostel life for another 2 years now...

I dunno where the hell is selayang, selangor is like a another foreign land to me, never like the traffic there...and never thought i will one day join into the hectic life of KL capital!

Should I look forward to it? I think I should, start building positive aura!!! :D
KL, Selayang, here i come!